Taking Back Control of Your Life
Soooo….I started the draft of this blog post on December 17, 2021…just a title. That's it.
Here I am, 226 days later, to take back control of my life! A lot has transpired since December. In between grieving the loss of my dad will over a year ago and trying to live life, my maternal grandmother passed away the day before Easter. Then, my sweet 14 year old pup, Lola, passed away suddenly in May days after our baby pup Josie turned 1. I also started a new position at work with greater responsibility, including people leadership.
In these 226 days, I've come to realize grief comes in waves and looks different for everyone. For me, I don't find myself shaking, unconsolable in endless tears. I find myself unable to find the motivation to do the things I once was able to do with such ease. Things like chores, paying bills regularly, leaving the house to spend time with my hubby or friends. The hardest of said things has been checking in with God through prayer and His word. It's like finding myself in a neverending cycle is not wanting to disappoint him anymore than I already have with the distance I created that seems to grow wider with each wave.
However, there are random moments when I can feel the Spirit prompting me to slow down, pray, and dig into the word. In those moments, God always shows up to remind me how much He loves me and is always there. Lately, I've found myself becoming more hungry for being in He presence. Every time I listen to those promptings, He shows up consistently. It's always me who creates the distance but also always me who has to hear/listen to the prompts to satisfy that hunger.
You may find yourself wondering, “so how do I take control back of my life?” after reading all of this.
The simple yet challenging answer is surrender and obedience. Those moments of being tired of being tired are perfect for surrending to God's will for your life. They are exactly when you leave every worry at the throne and stay in prayer as well as immersed in the word. Change the way you think and treat others - insert, what would Jesus do. Ask yourself, “is what I'm doing for the glory of God?”. When you start doing those things, I promise you will see Him showing up in your life in ways you could never imagine!
Are you looking fora safe space to work through getting close to God and walking boldly on your purpose? If so, Pajamas and Prayers will be relaunching in August! Stay tuned for more details soon!
