Little did I know as I prepared for and taught this session (as well as listen in on the second session) that I would get so much out of the message for myself. The biggest takeaway for me was 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐆𝐨𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬, especially during challenging times when it's not as easy to do.

It's been a month since I turned the big 4-0. I was told several times leading up to and even after my birthday how freeing being 40 is. That the 40s was a fave age period. I have to say that it has been everything I was told and more. I've come to see that when grief and joy touch, there's beauty in between.

If I did not make the choices I did, I would not have matured in the ways I have. Did I make life harder? Sure. I imagine God shaking his head but also cheering me on once I got back on track.

As I was approaching the big 4-0 a couple of months ago, deep down inside I knew there was some unnecessary weight that needed shedding. I knew after my yearly checkup earlier this year, I had some huge decisions to make when it came to my overall health and well-being. 

Turning 40 almost 2 weeks ago has given me the opportunity to reflect on how far I've come in life and where I would like to go from here.

Saw How Are You Healing as the name of an album recently. I initially read it as how are you feeling? 🤔 Upon reading it again and realizing what it really asked, it instantly had a powerful, pondering effect on me.

Soooo….I started the draft of this blog post on December 17, 2021…just a title. That's it.

Here I am, 226 days later, to take back control of my life! A lot has transpired since December….